I’ve noticed as I’ve been feeling better, I don’t want to talk about the disease as much. And I have to get out of that mindset. It’s why I haven’t blogged in such a long while. If I don’t talk or write about it, it isn’t real. I can pretend that I’m not living with a chronic illness anymore, atleast for now. But I don’t know if that is healthy. For me, I think not…I want to continue to educate others through my journey, remission or sickness. It’s all part of the journey. I can’t do that if I’m not blogging about it.
When you don’t feel well, you can’t ever be at your BEST. At least this is my experience living with Crohn’s disease. When I physically don’t feel well, I notice I tend to care less about how I appear on the outside. How I feel on the inside gets my full attention because I have limited physical energy and effort to put into other things. So I choose to focus my efforts on what I think is most important. And in my brain, that will always be trying to heal my insides, both body and mind.
It occurred to me recently that a lot of the issues I have coping with this disease may stem from the fact that I am a perfectionist. My Crohn’s disease and my inner perfectionist are constantly butting heads in multiple ways.
In this blog post I want to cover the different aspects of being a perfectionist and how that has created coping problems for me personally. Identifying the problem is a huge step in solving it. So I’m hoping by sharing my struggle, that someone else might have an Aha! moment like I did and begin coping a little easier. So let’s get into it…
Okay, I’m gonna come out and say it–Don’t try to fix me! I have very good reason to feel the way I do, and I want to share it with others so they see the reality of this disease. Being honest about what emotions I’m going through is helpful for me and helpful for othersContinue reading “Supporting vs. Fixing”