I’ve noticed as I’ve been feeling better, I don’t want to talk about the disease as much. And I have to get out of that mindset. It’s why I haven’t blogged in such a long while. If I don’t talk or write about it, it isn’t real. I can pretend that I’m not living with a chronic illness anymore, atleast for now. But I don’t know if that is healthy. For me, I think not…I want to continue to educate others through my journey, remission or sickness. It’s all part of the journey. I can’t do that if I’m not blogging about it.
When you don’t feel well, you can’t ever be at your BEST. At least this is my experience living with Crohn’s disease. When I physically don’t feel well, I notice I tend to care less about how I appear on the outside. How I feel on the inside gets my full attention because I have limited physical energy and effort to put into other things. So I choose to focus my efforts on what I think is most important. And in my brain, that will always be trying to heal my insides, both body and mind.
It occurred to me recently that a lot of the issues I have coping with this disease may stem from the fact that I am a perfectionist. My Crohn’s disease and my inner perfectionist are constantly butting heads in multiple ways.
In this blog post I want to cover the different aspects of being a perfectionist and how that has created coping problems for me personally. Identifying the problem is a huge step in solving it. So I’m hoping by sharing my struggle, that someone else might have an Aha! moment like I did and begin coping a little easier. So let’s get into it…